Sunday, February 26, 2006

sick and hating it

it's amazing how something so tiny can ruin a life of something much larger. i hate the virus that decided to enter my body last thursday, and is now wreaking havoc on my body systems. my throat's itchy, my nose still hasn't decided if it wants to be runny or stuffed with mucous. i sleep to forget i'm sick, but wake up to a throbbing headache. my voice is so nasal that my english sounds like french. my upper respiratory tract is all mucous and inflammation.

i can't eat. i can't sing. i can sleep, but regret doing it. worst of all, i can't study. my pedia exam is tomorrow and i can't study.


it sucks being sick.

verse for the day:
"If My people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. now My eyes will be open and My ears attentive to the prayers offered in this place. I have chosen and consecrated this temple so that My Name may be there forever. My eyes and My heart will always be there." [2 chronicles 7:14-16]

dear Lord, thank You for watching over my country. Amen.

Sunday, February 12, 2006


everyone has a definition for "love." love is affection. love is sexual attraction. love is an emotion. for others, it's an expression. love makes the world go round, yet some prefer that they live without it. love creates. it destroys. love is beautiful. love sucks. love is man's greatest weapon and at the same time, his weakness.

people think they're so clever. they think they can define love from experience. think about it. if the type of love you experience is beautiful, then you tend to describe it as something wonderful. the more negative definitions were most likely from people who felt little love from their family and friends. whoever said that love is sex probably experienced only sex in all of his or her relationships. with the various definitions of love, we end up concluding that love's meaning is different for each person. well it's not.

i wanted to know what love is, so i asked God. here's His answer:
love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. [1 corinthians 13:4-7]

almost every Christian wedding uses this verse. did any of us really take time to understand it?

as if that wasn't enough, God gave me an even clearer definition:
whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. [1 john 4:3]

i thought i knew exactly what love is. as it turns out, i knew nothing.